Testing went ok.
Everything went well, my sparring went surprisingly well, even my two on one match. Self defense was fun, although I was exhausted at the end. But my board breaks...if I fail, it will be because of those.
I went to do my first break, and I was expecting to break it. I put all my strength into the first one (forearm strike), but I hit the side of the board. I've never done that before in my life. Normally I would have just readjusted and broken it, but I hurt my arm really, really badly. Couldn't move my fingers, couldn't make a fist. My face actually was wincing with pain. In the end I couldn't concentrate on either breaks, the pain was really bad. So after a few tries I went down to one inch (I switched to a back elbow with my left arm), and broke that. Might have cost me the testing, though.
I had to go to Emerg and get it xrayed. The doctor said that he would have bet money on my fracturing it - but when we got the xrays back, nothing showed up. So he bandaged it up, and I can't do anything substantial on it for at least two weeks. It's just a very, very bad bone bruise - I came very close to fracturing it, the doctor said.
So there you go. A good testing with a disappointing finish. Don't know if I passed, Mr. Hanger will talk to me about it later. I think that failure to break boards is an automatic fail. If that's the case, I can't re-test in January because my arm won't be better. But I may be able to simply re test on my board breaks. We'll have to see.
This is increadibly frusterating. I'm disappointed in myself, even though I shouldn't be. Mr. Hanger says I have nothing to be embarrassed about, that I did really well and inspired a lot of people. And I did do that. It's just my board breaks. If I hadn't hurt my stupid arm, I would have done them.
Sometimes I want to give up, but then I shake my head around and remember that it's just one testing, one belt. It's ok to fail, it's ok to make a mistake. How a person handles defeat is what defines their attitudes and actions in future activities.
Everything went well, my sparring went surprisingly well, even my two on one match. Self defense was fun, although I was exhausted at the end. But my board breaks...if I fail, it will be because of those.
I went to do my first break, and I was expecting to break it. I put all my strength into the first one (forearm strike), but I hit the side of the board. I've never done that before in my life. Normally I would have just readjusted and broken it, but I hurt my arm really, really badly. Couldn't move my fingers, couldn't make a fist. My face actually was wincing with pain. In the end I couldn't concentrate on either breaks, the pain was really bad. So after a few tries I went down to one inch (I switched to a back elbow with my left arm), and broke that. Might have cost me the testing, though.
I had to go to Emerg and get it xrayed. The doctor said that he would have bet money on my fracturing it - but when we got the xrays back, nothing showed up. So he bandaged it up, and I can't do anything substantial on it for at least two weeks. It's just a very, very bad bone bruise - I came very close to fracturing it, the doctor said.
So there you go. A good testing with a disappointing finish. Don't know if I passed, Mr. Hanger will talk to me about it later. I think that failure to break boards is an automatic fail. If that's the case, I can't re-test in January because my arm won't be better. But I may be able to simply re test on my board breaks. We'll have to see.
This is increadibly frusterating. I'm disappointed in myself, even though I shouldn't be. Mr. Hanger says I have nothing to be embarrassed about, that I did really well and inspired a lot of people. And I did do that. It's just my board breaks. If I hadn't hurt my stupid arm, I would have done them.
Sometimes I want to give up, but then I shake my head around and remember that it's just one testing, one belt. It's ok to fail, it's ok to make a mistake. How a person handles defeat is what defines their attitudes and actions in future activities.
posted by Lisa at
1:11 PM
2 Comments:
Lisa, you're amazing. And if you didn't do it this time, you will next.
You know what you need? A pair of lululemon pants. I kid you not. You desperately need these pants.
By
Sarah, at 10:29 AM
What do they look like? And why do I need them?
By
Lisa, at 9:58 PM
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